We live in a world of duality; attachments seem to be part of that.
Attachment to love and light, is still duality as you say love and light, it means there is also hate and dark.
Even the oneness and wanting to be the oneness is an attachment.
Something I am realizing more and more, as I let go more and more
What seems to be giving problems the most is money. The attachment to money is very important. Afraid to spend money as we are afraid we will not have enough.
Releasing that attachment to receive the full flow of money is the one thing that seems to be the most important one for most of us at this time.
What if you have $100.00 in your account, you know you have to pay bills, and you know you have to buy food. This happened to me last week, and my daughter came and asked me if I could buy her shoes.
There was a choice to make, do I spent the last of my money on shoes or say no to her and pay the bills.
I choose the shoes, shoes might not be important to me, they are to her, and she is going to her first year in high school, so yes it’s important to her. I spent that money without feeling guilty about not saving the money for the bills, trusting that it would be there when I needed to pay the bills, had some money left over to buy some food and that was it.
For a couple of days there was no money, I did not worry about that, I didn’t need it yet for the bills and the moment the bills needed to be paid, the money was there. Not overflowing just enough to pay the ones that needed to be paid.
Thinking about attachments made me realize that I do have them, still.
Although I have released much of it, like love and light, hate and dark, good or bad, there is still some left within higher parts of my being which influences the human part as well.
It is hard as to what to do at times, what is it I need to do, what is it I need to teach, and more of those questions.
I had hit another block, this time it was released because of a money issue. Not having the rent in time, going over the limit with the credit card because my husband went to the bank to at least make a small payment for the rent and needed money for gas to get home. Using his credit card for that, he went over the limit.
I was so tired of it, angry about it, that I just cried all day, gave up on everything and just said, I quit. I am not going to do this anymore, I am not teaching anymore. I am going to let it fall where it may fall; it is out of my hands now. I can’t live like this. If we lose the house, we lose it; I don’t have any solutions at this time. I give up.
The next day I felt better, I felt I had released a lot of attachments that were still holding me back, I realized at that moment that even though we think we need something, it is an attachment.
We all want something; I decided that all I wanted was oneness. Realizing, that even that is an attachment to something.
I want to teach people to attain that oneness, yet another attachment.
Realizing all that brought in more information about many subjects as I started searching within myself, trying to find the answers to these questions.
Does it matter who I am spirit? To me it doesn’t. Does is matter who I am here. I don’t think so.
Does it matter to me if the earth ascends? Yes it does. Yet another attachment.
See the longer you think the more attachment you come up with.
What does that have to do with the whole process of ascension?
Everything!
Duality is about opposing energies, if you want something, there is something that you don’t want as well. Two opposing energies working against each other.
What if I can release the attachment, I will be able to balance the energies between the two opposing energies and allow them to work together to obtain the necessary energies for whatever it is I need. I do not have a specific outcome in mind. All I do is let the energies do their work and follow the flow without any expectation.
How do I release those attachments? I will have to find the source of these attachments and release them from there. For me it feels right to move into my own source being, my own source being does not have attachments to anything. From there I can see the attachments and start working on releasing them.
I know I have my work cut out for me, these are not the easiest attachments to release as the feeling of being and belonging in the oneness is something that runs deeply within me, through many parts of my being. But it’s a start.
Petra
August 25, 2010